Under Water

Sunday, October 14, 2001
9:00 AM  Brian is resting comfortably after a fever spike & higher pulse last night. His temperature is back down as is his pulse. he had more posturing episodes overnight but none late this morning. Medication being adjusted still - added morphine to Atavan for relaxation. Still on anti-seizure medicine to maintain and keep from happening. 10:00 More stimulated with some posturing but heartrate not so high and better recovery. Martha & Marshall worked together to talk him through. 1:30 Pulmonologist set of very strong posturing episodes with pulse up to 140 so we gave him some quiet time. Prior to that, Alana had been with him and he had been very peaceful, even opened his eyes and tracked her.
Brittany left for Monmouth at about 5:00. (Brian's older cousin)
10:00 PM The day continued pretty much the same. Brian resting a lot, still sensitive to stimuli, heartrate around 113.

October 14, 2012
I am still amazed at the things I had forgotten. Eyes peeking open, response to stimuli, all the posturing. I do remember talking him through with Marshall. It seemed in my memories that he was deep down and far away. He was underwater and I would talk to him each night as i went to sleep alone in our little Cheney House room. "Good Night, Brian", I would say. I would envision him down under water, floating, waiting for the right time to return to the surface. I was certain he would know when to come up.